You Are My Sweetest Downfall, I Loved You First

Since yesterday--no, since PLV Dance Company's Concert, I've been really touched by "Samson", sung by Regina Spektor. The company used this song for their dance about two lovers, the girl is blind and the guy donated his eyes for the girl's vision. It's pretty touching, and the dance was really sad. It touched me so much that I really can't move on! haha My friend gave me an overview of the meaning of the song, and I was shocked because I didn't expect that what she said was the actual meaning! :') So I decided to search for the further meaning of the lyrics, and I wanna share it to you, guys.. I hope it would touch you the same as I was. I have a link that will get you to listen to the song, just in case you don't know what I'm talking about. haha! I suggest you listen to the song first before reading its meaning. :) (Song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M6EXUQUXtgI) And the meaning.. Here it is:

My (the writer) idea was that she (Regina Spektor) was singing about some lover who died of cancer. It sounds like a long-shot, but hear me out ...

"Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth" - sheets of medical information. Her truth is that he's got cancer.

"Oh I cut his hair myself one night" - referring to the radiotherapy, which would have caused him to lose his hair. Perhaps she convinced him to go through with it?

"He told me that I'd done alright" - he knew she was trying to help.

"We couldn't bring the columns down, no we couldn't destroy a single one, and the history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us ... not even once" - despite the fact that Samson gave his life, they couldn't prevent other people (the columns) from meeting the same fate. And so many people have died of cancer, they don't matter to the history books or the bible.

"You are my sweetest downfall, I loved you first" - she feels guilty moving on now he's dead.

I also heard somewhere that one of Regina's own boyfriends had died of cancer ... although that may just be a rumour or gossip.


Whew! :') I bet you didn't expect what the meaning is, did you??

Well, I've learned something from this song. It is really hard to be in a situation where you are aware that the person you love the most will inevitably leave you.. And to think that that person will die, it would really be devastating. However, we must not forget that we have our God who loves us and cares for us. There are times that things are so tough, we are not sure if we can make it. We sometimes come to a point where we just wanna give up. And because of these bitter situations, we tend to forget that God exists. However, even if we forget God, He is always there, ready to help us. Moreover, He carries us all the way. We must remember how powerful and how big He is compared to our problem. And He is the only solution to every problem we have. God bless everyone!